Its a Stupid Blog.

2010-07-14T06:22:00.001-07:00

haha. stopped bloggin for 1 yr plus n i stil rem my pwd.. so puttin e blog here still helps, cos i can stil vent my angers here when i feel reali bad.. well i reali didn't noe things will turn so bad. isit my pms or m i just plain tinkin too much? been so unhappy recently. wif so many things. dat i blocked my fb profile from every1. luckily i have 2 days trainin.. cos i didn't reali noe how to face every1.. taking a break from work, seein e usual faces.. is actuali quite a blessing. i don have to act dat im happy in front of dem, or show dem my true emotions. i have been showin my temper n pullin a face too often.. n i don tink its a gd thing. i hate to flare up. but some under circumstances i just canot stand it. its such a dilemma, n contradict, but still... made new frens during the course.. feels so gd.. cos dey dono me well.. n i can jolly show my truth feelings. or rather, be a facade at e same time. i have no stress wif dem, don have to tink abt anything. hence i let out the true me, but at e same time. dey wouldnt noe if im hiding myself too. not like e usual faces or my close frens.. whether dey ask me wat happen or not, i feel uncomfy too. sometimes just feel like being alone. all e shits happenin at e same time, i wonder m i still reali so suay. well, i did something so evil ytd. i cant believe i did dat too. cos dats just not me. but somehow; i felt i was another person when i did it.. its like, i felt i changed totally. another person inside me. well, such things happen once enuf le. cos i don like myself being like dat too. so pls, don force me to.

He brought me to e seaside.. seeing me so upset.. it was peaceful.. we drank some beer, dropped some tears, talked things tru, looked at e stars... 1st time bringin me to such place.. guess both of us are too tired of all e shits recently.. needed a break.

i hope things go well for me.. i don wish to hide anything anymore. i just wan to be myself.

2009-02-14T02:17:00.000-08:00

Well, it all happened.. and i'm takin it real well.. guess its reali e time yeah.. no love, no hatred.. regrets mayb yes, but its ok.. i will still stick to dat action i made dat time..

Got to noe more n more ppl tru clubbin.. fren's frens.. or random strangers whom i jus ask to TAR la.. ahahha.. crazy.. anw stil gettin on wif dis kinda life.. club n club n club.. but im stil enjoyin it.. chatted wif Yutaki ytd.. hahha stil so cute.. goin to DF later again..

Today's V day.. got a bouquet of 12 stalks sent to my hse.. thanx ya so sweet of u.. even though its been so long.. n another small bear holdin a fake flower.. hahaa.. guess i will haf another gift but yet to receive it =) lookin forward to dat mysterious gift..

Anw felt so happy after i saw dat sms ya.. it shocked me totally.. totally dat my heart melt immediately.. it reali seems quite unreal to me.. but im reali happy la.. =) we shall c..

2009-02-05T01:14:00.000-08:00

张惠妹解脱

爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾
我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人
越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨
阳光替房间开了灯
想苦结局一样
又何苦再想
想若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤
解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦
想苦结局一样
又何苦再想
想若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤
解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我
解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

haha.. let us all 解脱 ba.. my girls.

i sudd felt my heart was dead.

2009-01-29T07:58:00.000-08:00

All e efforts dat we put in..

All dat we went tru..

All e barriers dat we crossed..

It all came to nought.

2009-01-20T04:28:00.000-08:00

Well, dono y.. but sudd tod of dis song again.. so long ald but stil love it.. some memories in it, but definitely not gd ones.. haha.. mayb last last sat heard it at df n kinda stuck in my mind ba.. aiya kinda troublesome, hence e chorus part onli ba.. but guess every1 noes wat song le.. lol.

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

aiyo.. for all of my dear gfs who r experiencin r/s probs now.. mayb for e guys too.. kinda emo song =\

Anw.. sun was fun.. went over to 'the sister's' house.. =) den went over to my sec sch for some alumni photoshoot.. was in e sun for nearli e whole day, but enjoyed myself lots =) after dat was mjin at joy's hse wif her mum n pt..

Jumping back, jus wanna say dat i love the lyrics.

Aye. Bye bye.

2009-01-10T21:23:00.000-08:00

Girls affair at Dragonfly ytd!! it was soo funn, i jus love clubbin wif my girls!! I was shocked dat i was e 1st to reach ytd (normalli im oways late) n den shortly later xiao hui reached.. followed by janet n stella.. we 4 gers went to join tables wif some uncles whahahhaa n it turned out dat it was 1 of e uncles' bday.. he tried to make frens wif me n make me drink -_- but xiao hui got so angry -_- aiyooo girlll i was stil so sober at dat time n it was his bday ma so jus entertain abit lo.. no worries abt me!! did chat wif e uncles awhile.. anw dey werent dat bad la, nv try to take any advantage..

Dere was janet's fren over at e corner n soon after, eileen n fren, agnes reached.. went to sign dem in... n den jason n frens came over too.. wif jessica.. n den renee, phyllis n her fren came over too!! wow.. from me xiao hui n janet become so many gers joined us.. so happy!! =) =) n got to noe dis nice ger angela too.. went over powerhouse for awhile wif eileen n agnes, but couldnt find renee n stella dey all.. den we danced by ourselves n sudd got a crowd of guys jus swarmed ard us.. look like young boys la. n den e gers feelin sad again.. dat oways happen towards e end of clubbin sessions.. wept a bit.. n den home sweet home..

My dear girls.. all so silly.. sigh.

Loves.

2009-01-01T07:57:00.000-08:00

CRAP.

EVERYTHIN is so CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP..

i dono y is my temper gettin so sucky recently n so easily irritated by every1 n everything..

mayb bcos my patience has worn off..

CRAP LA.

oh anw.. happy new yr!! or rather, learn from joy.. happy 'niu' yr! LOL!

2008-12-27T21:29:00.001-08:00

Yes i m angry.

Wtf drink so much n let ppl take care of u?n made til e bouncers nearli gonna send us out..i tell u,enough of ur nonsense n get on wif life..i totally understands how n y shes ignorin u..its too much le..ur tinkin is too childish le..yes i noe its hard for u to take things but u haf to learn to grow up n jus take everythin in stride..its not e end of e world yet..everytime u meet me ur talkin abt her..it jus makes me feel wat u reali treat me as..a fren in need or wat??it makes me so annoyed too,to keep hearin e same old shits again n again..n i told u for the 135th time dat if u wanna get into e shit den don fuckin complain!!!!!!!!!i've beared wif ur nonsense for over e month don keep testin my patience!!i do care for u but sometimes e things u did is reali too much le..its jus makin every1 else tired onli..say,if u reali chanced to read dis entry den i tink its time to wake up ur idea ba..i reali tried not to shout in ur face ald..so pls..don stretch my limit..........

N im bloody havin a headache now..guess its abit of hangover but i reali nv tod i will haf 1 today...argh sucks.n............. now my body is achin so much...thanks to ytd.

Goin over to Ivy's hse later for her housewarmin..gonna c so many ppl dere again...

Ahhh abit feel like pukin le. Tata.

2008-12-24T00:38:00.000-08:00

Its Xmas Eve.. fell sick on dis day, but still.. goin clubbin at nite. haha. my fren oways tod i geng mc but its true im not feelin well jus dat i don care abt my sickness n go out n play.. seh. flu n cough.. fever seems to b comin too, but well.. jus hope im not feelin too bad later.. cos its xmas eve n im gonna haf fun later! hehe..

Xmas party ytd in branch.. i've emerged as e big winner!! lol.. Q&As on xmas stuff.. i manage to get 1 ques rite.. got a small prize - jelly beans lol.. n den deres musical chairs.. i was 1 of e last 3 left.. den we ans ques again.. i've got e 1st ques rite so i got e 1st prize!! but due to limited funds, e top winner onli got $15 ntuc vouchers -_- ok lar mai hiam buay pai.. hehee. anw e ques was damn funny.. how many slidin glass doors do our branch haf?? lol. n i ans 7, n got it totally rite!! BAHAHHAHA.

Presents exchange.. i ald knew who bought it for me lar.. dat gong gong guy called me rite up when he chose my no.. lol. my wish was a pair of diamond ear studs.. n e silver cant b too fake cos im allergic to fake silver.. hehehe... n i got my pair of ear studs now!! nice bling bling~~ n i bought pressie for germaine.. dat pretty young ger in our branch.. though i exceeded e budget by quite n amount but im happy to noe dat she loves it.. cos i had a hard time lookin for it ya.. a Pierre Cardin passport holder for her woooo~ lovess... oh n deres e present boss bought.. a black wif gold pouch... nice... n sab's got for all of us a pen accessory.. so cute la! mine was a shark hehee.. n sharon's bought us hair accessories.. mine was a black sequined scrunchie.. ok la so sweet of dem!! muacks.. =)

goin ta rest a bit b4 headin out ba.. Advanced Merry Xmas to u guys!!

2008-12-20T23:47:00.000-08:00

Well, a happy post, for a change.

It was fun at St James ytd!! mayb due to e company i had.. i had e gers wif me.. my fav clubbin gers.. ivy, li teing n xiao hui!! whahahaa.. i enjoyed dancin wif dem so much.. n deres wei cong n eric.. justin, kai ming, jason, ivory.. had nv seen jason so seh b4!! lol! seein him dance was quite entertainin.. yeahh guessed dey all drank too much b4 me n my grp reached.. justin's face was damn seh too... like anytime can fall aslp lol. we gers took pix.. n somehow i jus realli enjoyed ytd!! after DF, we went over to PH.. e rnb dere was damn nice too!! afew guys chatted wif me n offered me drink.. of cos jus drink la LOL. chivas woo hoooo... danced danced abit.. den got to noe a ger in their grp too.. in e end she took my no lol... funny.

Anw, lookin forward to Xmas eve next.. =) =)

2008-12-18T08:41:00.000-08:00

i hate to drop tears at nite.. next day i'll haf sore eyes.. but y do i oways receive such news.. i realli dono how to react to it.. i didnt noe i'll still mind.. after so long... y did he tell me dat he haven let go.. when hes ald .................

i realli don understand.

n i noe u will regret it all ur life.

u've chosen responsibility over wat u wan.. u might abide by it.. but its gonna cause u regret for e rest of ur life bcos u kept tinkin deres no turnin back..

some things r still unable to express into words.

i can onli say dat im very lost.

at dis point of time.. whereby im so tired late at nite.. but cant get to slp.. tears jus kept flowin.. while i stare at e monitor blankly..

any1 can help me?

2008-12-17T06:39:00.000-08:00

feelin kinda sad now.. its been quite few months since i last had dis kinda feelin.. or mayb was i too occupied wif other stuffs so i don actualli haf time to tink too much? i had tod dat my drinkin hobby has ald became a habit.. or isit dat im stil drownin myself in sorrow? i realli cant differentiate ald.. my life has changed so much, my habits.. my environment.. i reali couldnt manage to accept any1 new in my life.. im stuck back dere.. i did a fortune tellin test myself.. its reali quite accurate, to my colleagues too.. i'll get married at 29... dats like 6 more yrs to go.. hope i'll manage to let go of everythin by den..

i've been stayin out so frequently recently.. at least 4 times a week, at most all of e days.. i could onli feel e tireness inside me.. n e satisfaction i felt when i tod i had planned all my activities so nicely dat i wont haf time to haf other tods inside me.. my parents had nagged at me for stayin out so many days.. worryin dat i wont haf enuf rest.. though i onli noe myself too well dat i havent had like enuf rest for months ald, but.. e most impt thing is not havin to tink abt anythin..

now it came back again. jus bcos i stayed at home to online for e nite instead of goin ladies nite at st james.. how is dat happenin to me?

i reali hate it when im bloggin such emotional stuff. feel so useless n stupid.

2008-12-15T08:11:00.000-08:00

Jus wanna thank u for helpin me drink e last gulp of my red wine.. u told me ur thirsty.. but i doubt so.. Is dat bcos of me strugglin too long wif my fren on whether to drink it? dat u wanna end it by drinkin it down, or is it bcos u didnt wanna me to drink it too? mayb u noe dat i'll onli listen to u.. 5 mins vs 5 secs. in too deep? or jus plain stupid.

Anw, jus a random post n random tod..

Martell.Vodka.Hennessy.Red Wine.

Missed.

2008-12-15T08:00:00.000-08:00

射手星座的女人　　

如果说射手座的男人常有些「唐吉诃德」倾向的话，那么射手座的女人就很容易有「南丁格尔」情结。射手座的女人经常会爱上一个家人都反对、朋友们也不赞同的对象。因为热情又有正义感的她总会觉得——如果我都不了解、不支持他，他还能相信谁呢！射手座的女子往往对世界充满了好奇、缺乏戒心。尤其是在她们年纪尚轻的时侯。她满心真诚的寻找着心灵契合的伴侣。结果经常是冲动的跳入爱河之后，才发现原来只是一条臭水沟。　　　　

还好射手座的女孩通常都有着天真乐观的个性。爱情的挫折不会轻易的将她击倒。把眼泪擦干，她很快又有了再试一次的勇气。不过，江山易改本性难移，失败的教训并不容易把她训练得世故一些。因此，失恋的故事可能得反复上演，直到有一天，那个真的懂得珍惜她的男人出现。　　　　

因此，或许你曾经听过射手座的女子游戏爱情、逃避婚姻的传闻。这实在是大男人主义歪曲事实的说法。射手座女子的观念、行为，或许并不那么传统、守旧。但是，对于感情，她们的确是非常诚恳的。　　　　

如果你想要成为她的情人，你必须先成为她的好朋友，彼此要有许多相同的乐趣和看法。她的爱情往往是从友谊中滋生的。有时侯连她自己也很难分清楚其中的差异。她的个性通常很独立，不是那种事事都愿意被你安排的女孩。她非常追求自由，不喜欢别人给她太多的束縳。但这绝不表示她放荡不拘。射手座是个具有贵族气息的星座。射手座的女孩通常自律性很高，崇尚人类高尚的情操，她相信人人生来平等、自由，人与人之间应相互信赖、尊重。因此，她不喜欢任何人给她订下什么规矩。当然她也绝对会给你应有的尊重和自由。　　　　

射手座女子通常并不是长辈们心目中「标准媳妇儿」的典型。你很难教一个射手座的女子信服「天下无不是的父母」，或是「孝就是顺」之类的道理。她当然认为对长辈应要尊重、要敬爱。但绝不能迂腐到一昧服从的地步。不论是什么人，都得要讲道理，是非黑白总得弄清楚，不能合情合理的事，射手座的女子恕难从命。你不要寄望她因为爱你，就必须要无条件的接受你所有的亲戚。有时侯表面上的亲昵对她来说都很困难。射手座的女子几乎都无法忍受「伪善」及「虚情假意」。她可不是个好演员，如果她不喜欢你，他肯定会让你看出来。对于有些射手座的女子来说，这根本是她应尽的义务。　　　　因此，如果你是个大男人主义的男人。射手座女子可能不太适合你。同时，你恐怕也会受不了她心直口快的毛病。她可能是个远近知名的直肠子，经常可以在大庭广众问一些让你下不了台的问题。也许她是个比较内向含蓄的射手座，当她听到你们说了一些她无法赞同的话，她会板下面孔表示抗议。你最好记得，当你带着一个率直的射手座女孩应酬时，最好不要说一些太不接近事实的话。如果你硬要夸奖老板那个挂着两条鼻涕、又哭又闹的小孩可爱的话，她搞不好会跟你说：「你马屁拍得太过分了吧！」要不然她可能白你一眼掉头就走，拒绝与你这么虚伪的人为伍。请不要用一种世故的眼去苛责她，你应该懂得珍惜这难能可贵的率直天真。　　　　

至于有些人说射手座的女孩有拒绝婚姻的倾向。其实，那只是她对失去的恐惧。如果你真的能够让她了解，你绝不会是一个像舍监一样的男人；你更不会无理的要求她接受你们家所有的亲戚。我相信她是不会拒绝你的。其实，她内心迫切渴望找到一个能够了解她、信赖她、珍惜她的伴侣，与她共度此生。射手座的女子是非常忠实的。而且，她也会这样的信赖你。因此，如果你让她发现了你对她的不忠，将造成她极大的伤心和愤怒。　　　　

其实，射手座的女子真的很需要你好好的疼爱她。因为，往往她受到伤害的机会很大。她的天真直率，使她很容易相信人。而她的直言无讳又很容易得罪人。所以，她总是会在自己也不明究理的情况下吃些暗亏。而爱她的方式并不需要小心呵护，时时叮咛，她最需要的是你的尊重、了解和鼓励，对于乐观、独立的射手座女子来说，这就足以支持她继续用光明天真的人生观与现实世故的社会战斗了。　　　　

多数的射手座女子在婚后仍然会选择作个职业妇女。你该了解，一个追求自由的人，当然会希望拥有经济上的独立。而且，射手座女子于生活品质的要求，通常也挺有贵族气的。很少会是那种精打细算、省吃减用的家庭主妇。至于家中琐碎的事，凭良心说，她并不十分热衷，但是她会懂得善尽自己的本份，通常她都能做个手脚俐落的太太，只要你不要摆出一副理所当然的大男人姿态。　　　　星期假日的时侯，记得带她出去吃顿饭，呼吸一下自由新鲜的空气，暂时摆脱一下婚姻生活的模式。她会永远心甘情愿的，做你聪明可爱，却有点粗心大意的妻子。而且她既不会疑神疑鬼，也不会限制你的自由。比起很多男人来，你真是幸运多了。　　　　

射手座的女人与「性」　　射手座的女子可以成为非常有趣的性伴侣。她有着追求刺激、充满好奇的天真特质。她不会拘泥于形式、地点或是时间。她可以配合对方，创造出各种不同气氛和方式的性交场面，态度明朗而大方。　　

但是对于过度执拗、激情，或是喜欢长时间沉溺于性爱的对象会感到不耐烦。　　　　

[射手座的女人与十二个星座的男人] 　　

1.牡羊座：是性向相合的对象，但常常会有争得面红耳赤的场面出现。还好彼此都心直口快不会记恨，不至于伤到真感情。　　

2.金牛座：妳的直言无讳恐怕教他有些吃不消。而他传统的男性观念，可能无法让妳信服。　　

3.双子座：和他相处妳会觉得十分快乐，许多方面彼此都能配合得很好。或许正因为如此，妳会安于现状，缺乏步向地毯另一端的动力。　　

4.巨蟹座：妳的直率往往会刺伤了他而不自知。经常会有他生闷气，而妳一头雾水的情况。　　

5.狮子座：彼此都是热情明朗的典型。但是要妳屈服于狮子座男人的羽翼之下，似乎有一点困难。　　

6.处女座：你真的知道他对妳很好，不过他的方式有些让妳吃不消。妳的率直天真，总会让他有点担心。　　

7.天秤座：你们会相处愉快，秤座男人不会在乎妳独立自由的主张，而妳的方式也不会给他太大压力。　　

8.天蝎座：他有着吸引妳的魅力，勾引着妳的好奇。但是真正在一起的结果，往往会是表面上妳占上风，事实上有苦说不出来。　　

9.射手座：相同星座的你们，自然很容易引起共鸣和信赖。但在意见相左的时侯，就比较没有缓冲的余地。　　

10.摩羯座：他是崇尚传统的，与妳的人生观有很大的差别。虽然可以互补，但比较难以引起共鸣。　　

11.水瓶座：你们会成为很好的朋友。妳所有天真想法他都能理解，但想要激起爱的火花可能比较困难。　　

12.双鱼座：他是很容易引发妳「南丁格尔」情结的男人，虽然个性不同，但妳总会有想要陪伴他、照顾他的念头。

2008-12-06T03:36:00.001-08:00

Wow. interestin. its been so damn long since i last logged in n blogged dat i nearli forgotten my email and password.. wats worse.. i even 4gt my blog add -_-

how stupid can dat b.

anw deres dis ger, tink she misunderstood dat im tryin to get back to her boy n spoil e r/s btw dem.. AW Come on. i felt reali great dat i let go of him to her e last time, bcos he aint exactly a gd catch den, n he still is now.. i reali didnt wanna say dis, but its not abt u, its abt ur boy.. i can sense dat u realli love him, n i actualli msged him to ask him to b more faithful to u n stop flirtin ard but he's still e same.. nv admits his mistake. n ask me to b his fling again!! WTH. i don reali hate him, i view ur blog is jus to c how things r gettin along wif u guys.. its interestin u noe, reali.. i told him im sooo glad im not his gf cos i'll b so hurt.. n he told me he cant get over me.

Ah sweet words again. dis stuffs don work on me anymore, particularly on u onli. cos u lied to me again n again.. e onli thing u excel in is flirt n foolin ard.. once i tod u were reali true wif ur words but hmmm.. i finali c tru things le.. but ger, ur not.. i reali hope u wont get hurt.. i emphasize again, dat i don hate any1 at all.. not even e guy.. jus dat.. mayb deres some misunderstandin i needa clear up wif ya.. cos i tink ur quite a nice ger too.. =)

Well, enough of dat, St James tonite again.. will i b able to get up for sentosa tml? hmm..

2008-07-13T12:26:00.000-07:00

Why do i keep fallin in love wif e wrong guy, or spendin my time n effort worthlessly for e wrong one? Such a disappointment again n again..

Well my dear ger, u noe im here for u.

2008-06-15T14:52:00.000-07:00

WAAAAA blog left unattended for more den 3 months!! wahahhaha~ actually deres too many things to blog abt..

startin off wif my job.. well i jus realised i stopped bloggin eva since i joined OCBC in e beginnin of March lol.. i kinda like e job til now, accept dat some customers r jus so ridiculous n make me so mad.. other den dat, i'm quite motivated to work cos dere's not onli e basic salary to earn.. deres commission too!! yeahhh.. somethin to make me look forward to workin lo.. n changin branches here n dere let me experience alot of stuffs too.. diff branches, diff cultures.. some more work, some lesser work.. some more walk-ins.. some lesser.. n i saw my poly lecturer mr chew at my current JE branch!!! n he stil rems me!! soooo funnyyyyy.. but gonna change to wdl branch soon.. n den back to my cck.... well its fun bein a relief too!

n i've still got my drinkin habit goin on.. though e no of times i went to drink per week is decreasin.. n its gd news!! hohoho.. n my new hobby is to visit DFS n paragon n wisma! WAHAAHHA hands oways itchy.. cant resist myself when i c those prettily displayed bags or wallets or coin pouches... now i noe how it feels to feel so broke towards e end of e month.... arggghhh. but well, wat matters is im a happy woman lalalaa...

i'll jus haf to say a happy belated bday for my darling geraldine.. hope dat ur well n forgo e past.. jus be happy everyday.....

n a belated happy bday to big big L mason!! gonna celeb his bday later.....

n i tink my eng reali v cui now le.. too long nv zhi xiu or brush up my eng n chi now my language spoken n written all SO CUI LE!!! shit.

tml's workin again!!

i don wanna b so troubled again!! NOOOO... i dono wat im doin le... sian.

i noe im like jus throwin in e whole chunk of my life story w/o filterin here n dere ah but i usually jus type out wats on my mind, wont go n tink abt e paraphrasin n such.. sorry guys if u haf a hard time readin dis hahah! i guess im still havin abit of hangover!!

2008-02-29T10:19:00.000-08:00

I realli didnt noe y i stopped bloggin for a month.. when im sooo freee to go clubbin n mjin n msnin at home n slpin... hahahah! i've been enjoyin myself for so so much for e past 2 months clubbin n playin n everything! hehehe.. n now.. its time i soon settle down.. cos im gonna start on my new job soon! n im sooo sooooooo excited abt it~ a service ambassador at ocbc bank~ as for which branch.. i guess i cant declare out here or not it'll b a mess over at my branch lol.. commencin work next mon... lets pray everythin goes smoothly~!!!! oh plssssssssss.. i wan to love dis job!

Tml's DF day.... soooo lookin forward.. mayb cos i knew we gonna b dere til closin, no curfews n watsoever... its gonnna b sooooo fun!! lets drink to our hearts content b4 i start workkkkk..

n abit addicted to dis viwawa online wahjong game hee quite fun lar.. its late le, dono wat im talkin abt oso le.shall blog again alright.. all e best peeps!

p.s : ohh yeaaa its the leap year today!! i don noe y.. but jus haf dis special feelin towards dis day.. mayb tink too much le ba. hahaha! happy leap yr~

2008-01-24T22:47:00.000-08:00

Sometimes.. u don try too hard in tryin to hide some facts.. or doin things in a roundabout way sayin dat u did all dis for who or who, y u do dat.. it jus doesnt work. e more u try to make things seem wat dey r not, e more things got found out n it jus look so ugly on u.. B wat u r.. deres no point makin up sooo many diff accs to check on somethin rite?? u tod ur gd, but deres oways some1 beta.. e loopholes got found out so suddenly n i jus found it damn hilarious. LOL. omg.. jus stop wat ur tryin to do ba.. no matter wat ur ultimate aim is.. why r things at dis stage.. jus rem.. U R E ONE WHO RUINED EVERYTHING.. in ur OWN hands.. ur own FUTURE.. so stop pushin it ard.. things could b very fine den.. but....... n den u ......... sigh. trust betrayed like nearly a dozen times??? nah. i dono wat to do wif dat anymore.. dis is jus...

ridiculous.

2008-01-22T09:41:00.000-08:00

Ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im terribly sorry to make u guys worry for me recently.. i noe my MSN nick & facebook has been kinda cui n so depressed n de-moralised dat some of u guys actuali don dared to chat wif me n been tryin all kinds of tricks to make me cheer up heee.. thanks for everythin reali.. some v unexpected frens tried to make me happy too.. i appreciate all dis!

在这个夜里，我更加了解了我自己..

i realised y i oways couldnt let go things.. i finali realised after my chat wif him.. i need ppl to trash things out wif me n tell me all e reasons to satisfy my curiosity.. i nv knew myself as some1 who jus wan to noe y y y y y y dis n y dat n y the hell like dat n when i finali got to noe everythin.. its easier for me... much easier i shd say.. its like a big big big weight off my chest!! no matter how much dey might haf hurt me b4.. but i still choose to believe dat.. dey r not bad by nature.. n i don regret wat i did for dem..

i've got too many gd frens advisin me.. too blessed in a way.. n sudd i m jus lost for words..

lettin go is not easy.. time is e best med. though deres still dis lil part of me which stil hopes for.. ... .....

2008-01-21T10:12:00.000-08:00

I can onli guess im 1 of e last fews to noe.. or actually, i'm e 1st few to noe.. but i chose to believe wateva was told to me.. cos i trust e person too much.. but y do e ppl i oways trust OWAYS lie to me?!!? wtf. got nth to do isit. to make up wif dat 1 lie, u told more n more n more.. which i refused to believe so but... sigh. YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. reali hate it.. argh. for my own gd? nahhhh.

I tod all dis haf ended.. y isit comin back??? nooooooooo don come n haunt me...

N im reali glad he called. =)

2008-01-17T06:04:00.001-08:00

Nothing is perfect.. nothing lasts... & nothing is forever.

2008-01-09T06:20:00.000-08:00

Today's e 9th day since my last day at scs.. hahahah! been relaxin at home n jus back from my Genting trip!! it was fun.. cos deres my 'papa' who made me luf at e slightest thing possible.. lol! n i've got great company like Joy, Ivan n Jia Wei.. too bad bestie's not dere!

On e 1st day when we reached Genting.. got a surprise from seaweed! he came to find us when we were waitin for our turn to take e room keys.. so Doug reali did drive him n Joe up! WEeeeeeeee~ havin dem ard makes things more fun as they're a noisy n funny bunch.. hehehe.. ate, den went to casino le.. went to e 1 where e bets r so big.. lost like 300 ringit.. hahahah. sad. played til e wee hrs.. n psychoed Doug n gang to return to Spore on e next day.. went to heat up Doug's engine.. den went to Casino again i tink.. lol.. but is another 1.. won back abit.. said hao hao to meet at 9am in e mornin to go to e theme park.. but we kept lai chuang.. LOL. in e end dey went back earli in e mornin.. left e 5 of us, we went to eat, den to theme park.. idiotic thing is i haven got to play my roller coaster den it started rainin!! argh. n i was in e rain for like 1/2 hr? lucky i did not get sick. hoho.

So we proceeded to e Casino again.. hahaha.. won back abit again.. stayed til mornin like 5am omg.. my eye bags were all out by dat time.. hahaha.. but saw a few gd lookin guys dere HAWHAHHA. n funny thing is we made frens in e casino.. tink we too frenly le.. we talked to almost all e trainee croupiers dere.. all their pattern machiam Ivan like dat! lol. abit styled hair n wear specs de.. lol. our tables r oways filled wif fun n laughter!! which is damn funny.. cos e casino is supposed to b those stern n serious place.. den we make so much noise dere.. even e trainees keep smilin n laughin at our jokes.. n got dis uncle told us he nv like dat b4.. lose money lose til so happy. wahhahhaha. dere was afew trainees whose hands r not so lucky de den we keep seein his nametag n followin dem to other tables when dey change shifts.. so funny la. wahhaha. made such a joke dere.. though we all lose money dere.. but i guess im still happy to b spendin time dere =) anw fyi... i lost a total of 180 ringit hahaha.

Nth much to say on e 3rd day.. woke up n check out of hotel.. roamed ard shopped abit n ate BK.. hahaha. it was rainin again.. big rain dis time.. freezin. took a coach at 3.30pm.. reached spore at 9+ 10.. shagged!

Anw im missing Genting aredi.. hehe.

Alrite i guess i'll jus rest for awhile more b4 findin job.. hehee.. i love my life now.. no stress nth!! but of cos.. i miss u guys. i noe u all miss me too awhhahhaha. =X shall arrange some time to meet up wif ya al soon!

Will things turn out alrite?

2007-12-19T18:39:00.000-08:00

During Primary School, I was a notti kid. I stole mum's coins n made a mess in school. I got to know frens like Li Ming & Ling Zhi.

During Secondary School, I wasn't the best student. My studies deteriorated. Ah Bengs & Ah Lians revolved ard me. But still, I made very gd frens in St John. People like Pei Ting, Joycelyn, Jia Wei. Classmates like Geraldine, Chun Lan. People whom i treasure alot. My memory don bring me so far, hence I cant find much things to write abt my secondary life. I only knew part of them were terrible.

During Poly Days, I was a very happy ger. I had many frens all around campus and were doted very much by those ard me. People like Erwin, Li Hong, Nigel, Boon, Ting Ting, Michelle Tan, Ben, Alvin are those which made a difference in my life. Helped me out with homework & projects. Stole each other's food & went for pool & KTV durin breaks. They made my poly life so much fun. Made me into e happiest ger I could eva b. Though we seldom keep in contact, but i will never 4gt e times we had tgt. Playin poker in tutorial rooms & gossiping about pencil head & Mr Yip. 1 of the most upsetting things dat happened, is me & Erwin drifted apart due to separation of IPP & FYP. But I believed we both will remember wat we went tru deep in our hearts. & deres Li Hong, this young mum. She will be xin fu. & Boon, I'm really proud of him cos he's a very strong boy.

During adulthood; working life, I am a person full of thoughts. All those office politics set me tinkin. Life isn't dat simple anymore, cos I'm an adult now. I have to tink for myself & for everything. Breaking up wif my 2 yrs + bf was hurting. The few guys who came in & out of my life made me hurt too. Other den those major hurt on r/s, some flies in e coy add it on by backstabbin/gossipin/hypocrisy. All these aren't to b avoided, cos dere wont b 1 place where dere wont b ppl talkin behind ur back. Nobody's perfect. I have learnt to look tru all those fake faces & smiles and acting skills. Terrible. Nonetheless, I am blessed with colleagues like Wendy, Yi Wei, BC, Alan, Bruce, Wan Ting, Jin Yang, Joyce, Shalrine, Xue Tong, Joyln, Yi Shun, Jia Pao, Li Yan, Jason, Johnson, Jonathan, Jasmine, Shi Lin, Pearlyn, Michelle Ng. All these people whom made me worth staying in this coy. I love every1 who has helped me in 1 way or another, & those who r true to me. Thanks.

Life has to go on. But when will mine end?

2007-12-08T01:55:00.000-08:00

Its happenin again le lar!! kinda frustratin.. anw, reali cant trust some ppl.. dey act like all nice n frenly to u in real life while takin pains to do some things not to let u find out at ur back.. n wats e point of it all? it jus shows how common hypocrisy is.. or rather, revolvin ard me! reali hate dat.. i don wanna state who n wateva but pls, jus stop all those small acts. n soon i'll b leavin e coy, so i hope nth like dis happens again when im not ard.. n i reali tink i made e rite decision by leavin ba.. so many unhappy memories.. its pretty obvious im statin some1 or some ppl in e coy, jus reflect on ur own behaviour. after gettin backstabbed so many times i stil chose to believe dat mayb deres some reason for doin it.. anw im jus bein stupid n too trustin in ppl.

I'll jus gif a slap to wake myself up from e cruel reality of how dark a heart a human bein can haf.

I noe its not e last, but im still not learnin from my mistakes.. wrong steps taken, but i followed it through n i reali do not noe when i will stop.

Ok, enuf of negative tots e moment i blog.

Happy belated bday to me! its like soooo belated.. but anw.. i had quite a gd time dis yr.. celebrated wif colleagues on Friday,30th Nov.. wenta steamboat at Roxy Square n to chill out at ECP.. time spent wasnt too long, but still im glad to haf e company.. Sat, 1st Dec was KTVin at Chevron's, and den dinner at Clementi n to MOS.. Received presents dat made me soooo happy!! deres MNG Tattoo perfume from Joy and Doug, a bday bear keychain by seaweed n lastly, my COACH wrislet!! weEeeeeeee~~ so sweeeettt of dem to get 1 for me.. thanx to bestie, Wei, Joe, papa, Si hao, Xiang, Soon, Jie mei, ling & Jian Sheng.. n actual day Mon, 3rd Dec was meetin up wif my bestie n gang.. met her up 1st to receive a small cake from TCC bought by her.. damn sweett!! she's sick, but stil surprised me wif dat n we took pix by e river.. .ahhahaha! kinda romantic la. LOLS. & waited til dono when for e rest to arrive.. went to Mind's Cafe for dinner n games... Halfway ling left.. Sad. & deres dis cake dey bought for me again.. but cant finish as its too big, hence shared wif e Mind Cafe's crew.. lol.

&... i jus got my Samsung purp U700!! WOW its so glam n classy i love it so much!! been hesitatin to get W580I or U700 n i finali made up my mind!! part of e reason is cos my Pink color edition for W580I is not out yet.. =P Thanx to Wendy, Jin yang, Wee, Alan, Wan ting, Bruce, Denyse, Dennis.... is dat all? dat was wat i was told..

Anw love allllllll e pressies MUACKs thanx all!! n of cos those who wished me happy bday!

Oh n thanx for takin out some time to spend wif me on my bday too. =)

2007-11-26T23:07:00.000-08:00

Hereby i announce.. I'll be endin my contract wif my current coy at e end of e yr.. 31st Dec 2007.. cos of some reasons it is.. but anw.. im a HAPPY woman! I had oways felt guilty if i were to leave my coy b4 my contract ends.. i jus feel so irresponsible n wicked.. but now.. everythin's a happy ending.. i guess im so sick of IT, im gonna change a new environment to work in.. heees.. kinda excited wif my new life though its so sian to go for interviews.. =\

Well, when u realised dat a place isnt e rite place for u to go on further anymore.. jus let it go n find another new room.. no point stayin on when things aredi turned sour.. learnt my lesson, n seen tru the ugly hearts of humans.. will grow to b a cleverer person from now on i hope..

Once i leave the company.. everythin will b gone.. e memories, people, everything.. i will den say bye to u. ...........

I haf a few visions of myself workin where n mayb takin up a course aredi.. mayb i've reali grown up.. n start to tink for myself.. cos no1 will.. my biggest dreams arent fulfilled n arent gonna b so i gotta tink for myself le....

Anyway.. new yr will b a brand new start for me... =) hope 2008 is a better yr for me..

My Birthday's comin soon too! can take a look at my wishlist lor hahHAHAH.

Lookin forward...........

2007-11-11T05:43:00.000-08:00

I'm havin such extreme moods dat im feelin v confused.. been partyin late nite outs dis week n havin quite alot of alcohol consumption.. though its bad for health.. but i guess we'r all addicted to it!! teehee.. its been so long since i went partyin n we all love e times goin clubbin or pubbin! mayb cos drinkin reali can 4gt troubles.. i'm gettin to become a beta drinker!! (minus e time when i got drunk at thumper).. dat was n accident!! due to dat stupid incident dat happened which made me lose my appetite for lunch n drinkin on dat empty stomach jus makes it bad.. well 4 sessions in a week is reali bad. hence i shall cut it down to mayb once a week, dats if my kakis jioed again.. hahaha. well, reali must say we guys had alot of fun!!

Much as i didnt wan to comment on my work.. but i guess i still haf to say somethin abt it.. dis workload given to me is reali quite tirin.. i reali hope things will smoothen down a lil to enhance my determination to survive tru dis bad patch.. i don like doin things halfway.

As for r/s... i haf nth much to comment abt it too. jus haf to say dat i'm still not ready for a new r/s yet.. or mayb its jus dat somethin is holdin me back. which is still abit too much for me to tink abt anythin else. i'm reali tired of bein in love or wateva.. i don wan anymore hurt.

Don tink too much on wat i've said.. cos i guess im abit semi-conscious now.. slp for onli 4 hrs today.. n after havin dat 1 hr nap my head is in pain..

N i realli tink takin in alcohol makes me lose my appetite n diarrhea non stop. is dat a gd way of slimmin down? LOL.

2007-11-06T21:00:00.000-08:00

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2007-10-31T03:20:00.000-07:00

Get on wif life my dear. Time to wake up from e dream n face reality.

Anw, happy belated bday to my dad. n jun ming. n happy bday to nic papa.

Happy Birthday.

Mine is comin. n i dread it.

2007-10-24T20:21:00.000-07:00

I m reali damn disappointed wif how ppl treat r/s.. told me 1 thing now, doin another later.. no i reali hate dat. im not gonna believe any more nonsense!!! 2 ppl being tgt is jus a thin line dat breaks up jus so easily. i dono y. im jus so upset by how fragile r/s can b recently. Argh. y m i so upset?

I cant trust ppl dat easily anymore.

2007-10-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

i cant take e fact dat i was lied to.. it jus hurts so much.. n i hate liars! y do u break my trust to u once n again? m i jus so bloody foolish or dat im darn it stupid?!?! to believe again n again. it doesnt onli apply to 1. to 2, 3, or even 4. i don wan to change myself to some1 whos doubtin n suspicious of every lil thing now n den n get so paranoid over everythin.. im becomin like dis soon! oh goodness, no more tortures like dat k! some things jus cant express in words.. ppl ask me y i've become not-so-cheerful anymore.. even some1 in frenster msged me.. askin y is my life so messed up, n dat he has oways like my smile in pictures... im reali grateful for dat concern of urs.. i don wan to grow up. e older i get, e more hurt i experience everytime. i don even understand myself now.. oh pls .. jus spare me all dis. i wan to lead jus a normal life, wif great frens, n understandin family n a gd bf. dats all i wan.

its all karma, isnt it?

2007-10-17T19:58:00.000-07:00

i cant control ppl's sucky attitude.. but i will reflect on my own n thank god dat im not like her.. cos it will degrade myself much..

i stil tink life is unfair.. but deres oways a reason to it.. n i'll jus take every bad things dat come my way as a blessin in disguise ba.. life'll much happier.. isnt it?

2007-10-13T11:59:00.000-07:00

I need to stop being stubborn.. let myself out of dis shit.

Free myself from e cruelty in dis world.

2007-10-13T06:02:00.000-07:00

Known as e no. 1 gossip queen, i reali hope she stops inflictin hurt on other ppl n tryin to influence e ppl ard her.. a person's attitude means much..so reflect on ur behaviour,ur not young anymore.

2007-10-07T11:02:00.000-07:00

Hi my dear blog... im so sorry to abandon u for like, half a month? been reali bz.. weekends either swimmin, outin wif frens, or stay at home watch dvds.. weekdays needless to say. been so bz wif my reports. sigh. talkin abt reports.. i reali pray everythin don go too hard for me. i reali wanted to cope wif everythin n endure tru e 1/2 yr.. time will pass fast, wont it? its a great learnin phase for me too, n i told myself again n again dat i haf to learn n take wat it is since i've aredi chosen my path... jia you! thanx to my colleagues who have been dere for me hlpin me in 1 way or another.. reali appreciated everything.

Problematic! things arent suppose to turn out dis way, or isit? do humans reali sit here n wait for fate to decree on dem or will dey try to change wat fate has for dem? i dono, n im tired of tryin. mayb e limit is dere le ba.

Yes, i wan more happenin things to b in my life.. as in, i wouldnt mind more meet ups wif frens dat hasnt met me up for yrs!! come n ask me out! hahahaha. nvm im crazy. normalli i talk like dis in e middle of e nite.

Life's a bother.

Life's a lesson.

2007-09-20T00:49:00.000-07:00

Neglectin my blog in progress. =P

2007-09-08T02:59:00.001-07:00

I m absolutely upset...Don't ask me y.

2007-08-31T22:05:00.000-07:00

11 days since my last update.. stil at ICA supportin.. but next week gonna transfer team n be back at SCS!! dono if dats gd news anot cos its even further den lavender...

Lunch time now, but asked colleagues to ta bao for me.. ehehehee. its damn cold down here n im shiverin like no1's biz.. feel like all my goosebumps r too active til dey r gonna die soon... reason i did not bring my jacket is cos chalet's later n i din wan to bring so many things.. heavy leh bag..

Heee chalet!! 1 of my favs.. hehehee.. e time to gather wif every1 n bring every1 closer tgt.. talkin abt bags, i purchased a bag online, introed by bestie.. all e bags jus look soo nice!! but sad thing is due to my work, i cant choose e nice ones properli, in e end i got onli 1, n now sudd i found alot more nice de.. whahahaha.. so if e quality's gd, we will shop online again!!! weeeee. actuali kinda afraid of shoppin for clothes online due to e previous lousy goods i got back... its like. how m i suppose to wear such clothes out??? NAH.

My Tuangs Mee Pok is comin!! WAHHAHAHA..

How r things now? i reali dono. things seem normal ba.. but at least dey arent bad.. =P

Hope my new team will b nice!!! =DDDD

Oh.! n i cut my hair.. .its like jus so short now.. tink at least 3 - 4 inches?? omg. but some of my frens say i look beta in dis hairstyle. wahah! at least dats comfortin to me.. =) thanks dad heeeee muacks.

N im sick. = S
AHHH CHEWWWWWWW. *coughs.

2007-08-20T00:18:00.001-07:00

Oh.. n deres dis Haagen-Dazs thingy i saw on xue's blog.. n so coincidentally dat im lookin for jobs!! whahahahha.. great timin huh..

=DD

2007-08-20T00:05:00.000-07:00

Wow. so happy cos finali i got some freedom, hahahahaha! My privacy n freedom is back!! mayb for a day, but its enuf to keep e rest of my day happy.. =) monday isnt so blue afterall..

Sittin in e room wif alan n lao ban... stil tinkin abt e same stuffs.. wat do i do after my contract. lol. so far........ i tink im gonna rest mayb a week or so? finish up all my dvds pilin up in my room.. den go look for a job.. mayb in banks? or IT QA stuff?? hmmm i dono.. stil hopin for dat miracle in life, but i doubt so.

But anw i gotta b strong to brave tru dis phase of life.. =D life goesssssssssssssss on.. unless ...................?????????

Ok im so relaxed now dat i dono wat im talkin abt aredi.. anw i missed my blog!!

Chalet comin~~ wEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2007-08-09T00:36:00.000-07:00

And so.. its National Day.. a day to nua at home. so lethargic n don feel like goin out at all.. guess dat all comes from e near 12 hrs at work for e past few weeks n e restin time not more den 7 hrs.. MJed ytd nite, woke up feelin a bit giddy jus now.. weather's hot, addin up to e cuiness im feelin now..

Guess National Day's all abt fireworks? will b many ppl goin to c e fireworks ba.. nv had dat intention to specially watch it wif my love ones. im not e romantic kinda person ba. HAHA. crap.

Im worried. extremely, over my future. contract's endin in a month's time.. hate to haf e feelin of leavin somewher grown close to me over e past yrs n get all emotional. v sians de feeling. hai. mum noes me well. doesnt reali wan me to study too. dono lar. reali contradictin.

Always tod of jus gettin married n get supported by my future husband. ha! but dats not ez too. livin n adulthood is completely diff from now. guess i wont b able to do well in dat field too. i dont noe wher i belong. oh anw, i haf oways tod dat bein a tai tai is so nice. HAHA. no need so damn rich de lar. above average abit i happy liao. wahhaha.. n i can go to work when i feel bored, no need to c whether e pay gd anot, cos i jus work for fun! hoho.

Anw as i haf guessed as much, e Fann Wong movie shd haf aredi started filmin le. keep ask my fren but she say no news to b calafare leh. sad de, cant c her liaos.

Life is so sians leh. do dis oso not happy, do dat oso not satisfied, must do wat den will make me happy?

Im tired again. gonna watch e bf who loses e memory show on tv, n get a nap if i get too slpy later. ciaos.

2007-08-08T19:23:00.000-07:00

Discreetly typin entry blog.. in ICA. hahhahaa! nth much to say anw, jus to say HIII to every1. -_-

Yes im bored.

Oh ya, a Happy advanced National Day!!!!

I love Singapore!!!!!

2007-07-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

I m absolutely worn out from e tons of activities lined up dis week.. even backed out on e supposedly Dennis's bday celebration on Fri.. sigh. its been so long since i last played MJ.. 2 weeks le lor. =\ Lackin of slp has been every1's routine at work.. Jus came back from e S.H.E Play Party.. gonna peng san liao..

No time to update much. cos reali bz.. i dono y i chose to eat my bday at dis time, instead of goin to bed. -_-

Anw happy bday to Alan baa baaaaa.. whether isit today or tml, HAPPY BDAY!

2007-07-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

Birth, Age, Illness and Death.

All dis r part n parcels of life.. receieved news from each of dem, n it occurred to me once again dat life is reali oso fragile. u nv noe wats gonna happen tml.. sigh.

Spent nearly 12 hrs outside today.. doin somethin stupid. hahaha. not reali dat stupid, but.. nvm. hehe. gonna c SHE concert next sat!! hard earned de tix.. sob sob.

Wed onwards goin over ICA.. hope everythin go smooooothly!

My Fann Wong show Switched! is gonna end on mon le.. so sad.. lookin forward to their endin!! wat i cant believe is dat e theme song of e show is actuali sung by Shi Xin Hui?!?! wat the. cant imagine her voice so act cute. all along tod was Jeanette Aw de voice lor.. zzz.. n after mon i can go out after work on weekdays le!! wahahhaha.

Bestie bestie arrange for us to go BUGIS!! hehe.

N pray my wendy wendy faster make my angel for me =(

N thank thank wendy for her tix to SHE concerT!! =D

Loooooooookin forward to our CSC chalet on Aug - Sept!!! its gonna b MJ mj n moreeee MJs!!

Heard dat joy joy booked a chalet durin Sept too?? hmmm.. was not informed yet though..

Tml.. gonna rush after work. sigh.

P.S : My sincerest condolences.

2007-07-18T21:28:00.000-07:00

Again n again i've placed my trust on ppl whom let me down again n again.. i reali don understand y ppl haf to hurt me like dis. cant ppl jus forgive n forget? i can forgive. but i don 4gt some stuffs. yes, some things once done, can nv do anythin to change e fact, but ppl could haf looked deeper into y such things will happen.. n it doesnt occur on 1 person alone..

For eg, a r/s is played by 2 ppl, results of a breakin up might not rely on e 1 who initiate e break up alone. tink, jus tink. how much effort is put in by both in e r/s? wat led to a break up? ppl don treasure wat dey haf, but when dey r abt to lose it, dey wil realise how much e other means to him. does it happen in dis case too? i guess yes. too late anot, its decided by e initiator le.. if given a chance, he might win back his bliss n love n lead a happy life.. but if not? mayb he'll jus lose somebody so dear to him.. it will b his loss. to me, i reali wan to treasure everythin now.. b4 i lose anythin yet again.. but i stil m determined dat i wanna b a non livin thing in my next life, i'd rather haf no emotions den havin too many. haha.

Jus typed in dis post cos i skipped lunch n its a sudden tod to me.........

Since e 1st time i heard dis song, sang by Xu Wei Lun.. i tink its damn nice n touchin.. after hearin Vivian's version, i feel its kinda beta.. but both r gd lar..

《好眼泪坏眼泪》徐若瑄

我曾认真试爱着一个人
他给我幸福的可能
我等我问未来何时发生
他只是给我一个吻
快乐我哭是因为你的手
曾答应带我向前走
难过我哭是因为我的手
找不到你说的以后
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后
像坏的眼泪慢慢流
快乐我哭是因为我付出
得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我认输
你的心永远留不住
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
有好的笑容陪着我

2007-07-17T02:32:00.001-07:00

Alrite i had reali wanted to talk abt my trip.. but i cant understand y im oways stuck at e 1st sentence whenever i wanted to type something abt e trip... argh i jus cant to get e things outta my head. anw cruise was fun, lots of blowin wind, casinos, eatin e food dere.. explorin e place.. every1 told me cruise is borrrrrrin.. but we tod it was reali ok, in fact, we don even haf enuf time to go for our foot reflexology n wendy's spa or jacuzzi. lol. took pix again n again, i haf 160+ on my camera, n my colleauges n i tink add up tgt near 500 ba.. hahaha..

Changed too much Ringits n ended up wif lots back home.. tried to dig things to buy at KL wif e limited time given, onli manage to spend 100+ ringit durin e 4 hrs at KL.. at least i manage to buy something!! a tee from planet hollywood, lots of tidbits, a mini Tiara, cute lip balm, a few glass beads n a key chain clock.. cant tink of others now.. oh. n photos dat e ppl onboard e cruise took.. its those big bear like things huggin us n take de pix.. lol. purchased 2 5Rs n 2 mini pix n another is a frame.. total addin up to $34.90?? kinda x.. but nth much to spend on, so jus buy lor.. n e guys dere so funny. deres 1 guy who wans to gimme special discount on a certain frame, but i rejected. den he ask me y don wan to buy all e photos.. den i said don wan la so many, u wan u take lor.. den he realli took a key chain of me n a bear n hung it at his bunch of keys.. -_- n left it hangin out by e pocket.. dono wan to luf or cry. so funny. den next day i walk past, dey almost don recognise me.. its onli when i smile den dey saw my teeth, den e guy take out his chain.. n dere was my pic again! had nv expected him to keep it dere for so long lor.. but anw i wun b seein him again, n he wan he take n keep momento, i don mind. lol.

Won at e casino.. deres n extremely irritatin guy on e same gamblin table as me.. act as if he damn pro wif e strategies he had on his mind.. kao. so angry. keep on talkin nonsense n psychoin e guy beside him to play bigger bets n teach him how to play.. worst is he made such sarcastic remarks abt me n another ang moh, sayin we dono how to play n stuffs.. kaooo feel like flippin e cards on his face lor.. but i bear wif him for so long.. arghh.. scare he slap me la. hahahha.. so i keep quiet lor.. but anw i stil won on both nites.. heee.. not much lar =D

All e time dere, tooooooooo bad is my stupid mens came at dat time n i dono wat is e factor leadin to my nauseous n dizzy feelin all e time onboard.. kinda spoil my mood, but i stil damn hyper ~! wahhahaha!

Some pix i jus received from my colleagues.. mine haven upload, but mine will b too large wif too many of me inside e photos.. wahhahah!

Overview of e pool on the ship.

Me, Wendy n Wan ting inside our room

Us at the twin tower..

Damn damn damn lazy to upload those nice nice pix leh.. hahahahha bth. got more time den i upload more.. off work soon!!!

2007-07-16T02:53:00.000-07:00

Back from cruise..!! Cruise was fun!! but currently v v tired as my programs r all v packed, hence lack of slp.. its gd dat im pre-occupied, so dat i can 4gt e unhappy things dat im facin.. been lackin of slp for nearly a week.. though v tired. but i feel beta den bein too awake n facin everythin.. anw will elaborate on my trip when i haf e time.. i do haf it now, but gonna off work le..

Anw.. i don understand y ppl wan to say such lies, it reflect badly on them, makin ppl haf a worse impression of dem despite havin some attitude.. Lies, lies n lies.. y cant ppl jus don LIE?

2007-07-11T02:05:00.001-07:00

Some things i jus don understand.. dono y things will turn out like dat.. n i din even noe dat dat was wat she was tinkin.. but somehow e facts were oways twisted.. reali cant understand????

Anw im a reali suay person. e things dat i wan to prevent all happen de.. sians. goin cruise later.. but not v happy liao..

Zzzzzz..

Bye Spore.. Hi KL.

2007-07-09T22:07:00.000-07:00

dono if things jus got beta or worse.. flipped e whole nite ytd on bed, cant get to slp.. lots of things botherin me.. n everythin don seem to work for me.. sick n tired n don feel like doin anythin..

n side effects of my med.. hate it.

Wat is happenin?

2007-07-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

Argh gettin more n more fed up wif her... tink so far dis 1 yr + i haf nv given her dat black face b4 lo.. n once i did, she doesnt even care y i gave her attitude.. tink abt it lar. i've oways been polite to her.. at least gave respect.. of cos i haf my reasons for doin so.. i m sick n i cant stand ppl naggin.. n she chose to nag n nag.. i've got 3 days mc.. came back on e 3rd.. to c her naggy response again.. how stupid can i get? hai.. so it jus shows.. bein nice to every1 doesnt mean u will b treated back e same.. so i will onli b nice to ppl whom i tink r worthy.. but i guess i will b soft hearted again someday.. but jus hopes she tinks it over wat she had done, don oways get so worked up abt everythin n makin all others more n more dislike her..

I hate to b angry wif some1.. n i hate to hate or dislike dat person.. cos it jus takes me more energy to process dat emotion rather den bein neutral or happy.. its tirin n its a load in my mind.. don like dat feelin.

So don provoke me anymore!

2007-07-05T21:07:00.000-07:00

I dono y my previous post doesnt appear on my blog.. dats weird. but nvm it isnt a v impt entry anw..

Mc-ed for 2 days.. watched finish Bump off Lover (Ai Sha 17) at home.. i don understand y most of my frens tink its not nice.. cos personalli i love e show alot... its a realli unpredictable show where u wun noe who is e bad ppl until e last min where dey admitted it.. e last part made me reali touched.. v xin wei-ed.. but i didnt cry. dono how to state it out here, but she reminisced all dat happened durin she n her twin's 17th yr.. though many ppl died in e show and its kinda a dark show where u realised ren xin nan ce n ren de xin you duo hei an, i m stil v happy wif e endin.. reali v nice show where i learnt alot of things in it.. lucky i nv heed my frens' advice n not watch it! tee hee..

gonna rest a while le.. drugs takin effect..

2007-07-03T00:21:00.000-07:00

I'm sick.. n when she came back she nag nag nag nag nag nag nag cant stand it ahhh! Feel like smackin herr!!

N don treat me hot n cold!!! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.

Yi Shun's last day.. hope he gets on wif life beta after he quits dis place..

Bad things starts to happen again.. pls don, cos i jus got out of e v v dark side of my life..

Yeah jia wen, saw ur post le heheheh im sick if u happen to c dis, will ask u out, best b4 my Cruise trip!!

Cruise cruise cruise!! its nearin.. next wed.. hope i get well b4 den too!! if not how to go!!! *cries boooooooo..

Feelin so xin ku..

2007-07-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

Sis's gone to Vietnam.. hope shes havin fun over dere.. n so coincidentally, deres no mj for me dis week.. allowin me to stay at home to acc my parents.. =D

V tired recently.. been burnin up alot of brain cells for d0no wat shits.. makin me v absent-minded n more blur den eva.. ppl ask me dis n dat.. do dis or dat.. somehow i oways mix up stuffs or do it wrongly.. sigh.. but i do tink dat im gettin senile dementia at my young age, cos i cant seem to b tinkin abt anythin major.. my mind is oways so confused, dono over wat oso... sigh. wats happenin to me?? v v serious case here...

Anw earlier on.. went down to e place wher li min's learnin her bridal make up course.. was asked to b her model... hahahah.. even had tods dat it might b borin all dat but its reali diff when i went dere.. learnt some make up skills when i was sittin dere like a dummy for e whole 3 hrs.. e ppl dere were ok.. her teacher was nice.. n li min's make up skill wasnt bad at all.. e most impt thing dat reali brightened up my day... hmmm. ERR HMPPH!! was dat we, e bunch of gers dere.. was asked to b Jack Neo's new movie's (Long de chuan ren or something???) calafare!! WAAHHAHAHAHA! isnt it jus excitin jus tinkin abt it? e main point is cos FANN WONG is starrin in it too!!! can u jus imagine omg me standin beside fann wong in e camera???? i cant imagine daT!! when i heard i nearli fainted!! actuali he was askin e students dere, but im not gonna care.. i raised my hands up too LOL i jus so wanna b in it!! fann wong leh!! den i told dem i like fann since i was primary 5.. n showed dem e pix of fann wong dat i took last time.. weeeee guessed dat confirmed to dem how much i like her!! its jus so damn excitin dat i kept tinkin abt it e whollllee day.... HEEEEEEE. =) =) =) thousand smilies.. alrite so after dat dey did a port folio of me.. stupid poses which i dono how to do n my fat face turn out like shit.. wahhahahhaa.. 1st pic stil ok.. e rest errr.. kinda weird. like not me at all.. anw jus asked e person to develop for me for memoir.. hehehehhahaha. volunteered to b n exam's model tml, so will b goin down too....

N so after dat, we wenta e dessert shop beside n ate some stuffs to satisfy ourselves.. lol.. den went down to orchard to shop shop n shop!! but somehow.... all e sales girl dat we met haf attitude prob.. jus feel like smackin dem.. den i told li min mayb all of dem pms lor... stupid women.. was at heeren buyin a v v cute hp chain for my sis n dere were too many designs so we chose n chose n chose like a total of 1/2 hr?? e sales ger is alrite.. kept tryin to hlp us.. but not e shop owner.. she had such a sulky face n looked as if we were messin up her shop (only 1 section la).. tod her face is like dat de.. den asked for discount since we were buyin a total of 7 altogether... she said alrite, 10% den.. wth.. she wanna bluff me lor.. so happy de pay $$ den when i went out of e shop i counted n dere were no 10% excluded lor!! shitty de.. den went back to tan pan wif her.. she said she was lookin into it b4 i could say much.. so ok, i waited.. den she gave me back 10% of e money, ask me correct anot.. den i stun i said i dono.. den hell, she said HUH 10% OF $34.30 u dono? .................. damnit lar my brain not workin leh n my maths once failed de leh.. damn ren shen gong ji lor.... den i smirked at her n luf sacarstically : "ya hor.. hur hurr....." den gave dat face at her when i turned to leave... wth! kana critisized!!! ANGRY ROAAAAAAR! den li min bought a discounted top at 4gt wat shop at far east.. e person gave her those weird looks cos she wanted e display piece n not e new 1.. i was kinda shocked too but i understand dat cos e new piece will b even tighter den e display piece.. dats disheartenin for li min too.. alrite so i wenta e many accessories de shop.. was choosin a few accessories.. den e stupid sales ger gimme a glum face too!! wa kao. c le oso sian lo. tink cos we were standin at e same place, mayb im gettin in her way.. but.. -_- pls leh.

Ok, den i went to trendy zone to c shoes.. saw a cheap n v nice model of heels.. so asked e sales assisstant to hlp.. well shes nice, for once in e whole day.. hlped me extend e toes part abit, n wax e shoes.. nice service.. though crowded in dat shop... but dey served me well!! thanx trendy zone... so tired we were.. n we were lackin in cash.. li min had $5.. me had $7.. how to eat like dat? n she didnt wan to eat fast food.. walked to hans, but their mode of payment is cash onli.. sadded half, we walked to e jap restaurant dat we ate e last last time we met.... stood outside like pieces of glass.. were totally ignored by e crews!!! wat sia. not as if e make up lm did on me is not heavy enuf leh.. dey shd haf spotted my shiny eye shadow ma!!!! shits de.. we waited for like 5 mins.. den e person at e counter hiao over to us.. alrite. showed us our seat.. for 2.. so kuay sio.. carryin many bags leh lady.. requested for a change in seat, but was answered dat those r seats for 4.. machiam i canot c meh?? but so late liao wher stil got so many ppl come in 1.. kaos lor.. den i saw a sofa seat for 2.. at least can put my things down lor.. requested for it again n dey seem so reluctant!!! jus wats wrong wif ppl nowadays???? ok sat down... even order food.. waited like hell.. waited til i yawned so endlessly dat my fake lashes r droopin... wth. by e time we ordered n e food came, i was aredi in a zombie mode.. tears wellin in my eyes n mucus storin inside my nose, wif e lashes droppin out as i ate my ramen.. SIGH. jus cant understand y dey mess up my day...

Detailed everythin out on dis entry!! bein v bz recently at work.. so cant blog much.. goin down ta ica now n den to verify if e system is workin anot... sians.. eh. i rem sayin i was excited n happy abt it, but hmmm no not realii now.. cos i gotta reach ica b4 8, which is way more tirin for me to travel to Jervois.. cant complain too much can i?

Dats life.........

P.S : Oh.. n i must emphasize dat the calafare n filmin stuffs r NOT CONFIRMED.. so don assume me is goin to b big star liao har.. hahahahha kiddin la.. mayb dey might jus kick me out cos i too fat don look gd on tv.. -_- anw if i reali did chap ji kar in e movie den i will yaya on my blog again.. =DD hee kiddin..

2007-06-25T21:00:00.000-07:00

Irritatin.. GRRRr.. *Grinds my teeth..

Goin down ta ICA for work from Wed onwards.. dono til when ba.. mayb 1 week onli.. ahhahaha..

Weekend was not bad.. K-buffet at Marina Square for a small celebration for Joyce's bday.. lost my way in MS for 20 mins like dat.. stupid hor.. hahahhaa.. sun was shoppin wif sis.. weee bought my Gucci Envy Me! funny thing is sis bought for me, sayin is my bday present.. but my bday is half a yr later!! wahhahha.. but of cos i don mind!! cos i nv reali bought perfume for myself b4... heeee.. happy happy! n bought some small things..

Went ta attend Jill Lowe's make up workshop on fri.. was quite fun! n i actuali signed up the membership wif a few colleagues.. lol. don tink i wil b buyin their products dat often but dere r some free gifts to go wif bein e member so jus sign lor.. got a free 3 hr make up lesson too.. heee.. was said dat deres Iodine at my eye area (???) cos of too much salt intake.. gonna cut down on dat le.. n my season color is Winter - Spring! Season color is e range of colors dat will suit me... interestin hor..

Dat r my colors! hahahaha.. took afew shots after e make up done.. though quite light.. n sometimes my eye grow so small after heavier make up done.. hate it leh. uugly. smally eyes n chubby face me.. hoho.

2007-06-24T10:38:00.000-07:00

V upset now.. mayb of e thing dat i heard of.. i dono y it stil affects me.. but sudd felt like all is lost again.. n for e other incident, reali worth truckloads of worryin.. hope everythin goes well..

Sigh. im sucha worry-wort (dono got dis word anot, if don haf den assume i make it up de ba).

Damn SIAN!

2007-06-20T03:14:00.000-07:00

WA. 8 days nv blog. all bcos of e stupid user manual. seein letters everywher zz.. dono y i do things foreva so careless.. here 4gt to edit, dere sudd screen gone, wrong flow, routin lost.. wat oso can happen de.. make my work progress slower den expected.. but onli can blame myself nor. who ask me. oways work halfway mind dono drift til wher.. or work halfway eyes wan close n slp liao.. zzz. i tink i haf some slpin disorder lo.. foreva tired de.. no matter enuf slp anot.. tink deres not 1 day whereby i nv yawn for lesser den 10 times..

YAWwwnnn. dere i go again.. well beginnin of dis week has no programs... til tm mayb goin out.. fri goin shoppin.. sat celebratin joyce's bday n sudd dere comes ben's 21st !! oh shit. i wanted to go to both. but don tink i can, cos i agreed to joyce's a month back n ben's is too sudden for me to make any changes.. shits. im so sorry ben.. =(

Next week mayb goin downta ICA for work?? weeee kinda excited by it.. cos its nearer to my hse!! heeeees. total journey should'nt b more den n hr.. not like now, travellin to Jervois took me ard 1 hr 10 mins ba.. err not much diff but most impt thing is, Lavendar MRT to ICA is like less den 5 mins walk!! whereas Redhill MRT to Jervois is like cao cao a 15 mins lor... walk til so lang bei.. a change of environment once in a while is a gd thing.. but bad thing abt it is i don haf a workplace dere n tink im gonna doze off now n den cos its soo borin, but guess i couldn't too cos gotta attend to so many users.. anw tink too far le ba. hahaha..

Stupid connection keep down.. sians.. watchin Wei Xiao Pasta since last week.. quite nice show.. makes me like Cyndi beta hahaha cos shes reali cute inside.. heee.. finishin soon.. dono wats e next ou xiang ju dat i gonna catch le.. hohohoho.. alrites time to pack up n sua back home leee!!

P.S : Get Well Soon.

2007-06-12T03:24:00.000-07:00

Finallyy~ its time to go home.. but im here bloggin.. haf so muchta say over e weekend but it dragged on for too long n kinda erased from my memory le.. been upstairs at e trainin room doin user manuals.. wa e strong lightin dere n from e comp makes my eyes so tired n strained.. gotta b up dere most of e time, so cant even exchange emails wif my sweets n chat wif my foreva fren.. sadss.. up dere canot surf net, canot msn, canot listen to music.. v strict de... but its stil all rite lar cos its documentation n i kinda like doin it hahahahah.. stil hope e 2 weeks faster pass though~~

WEekend was mj mj n more mj... thurs nite, fri nite n sun nite... thurs wif joy n mum n joe, fri wif teck n fren n joe and sat wif joy n hong n joe... so from here u can c who is e du guis jaahahhahaha.. slp e whole of sun.. nuain my way at home.. sat was ktvin wif si hao joy doug papa n wei at Chevron's b4 our mj session.. its fun!! doubt so at 1st cos seems not much ppl goin hahahha but durin e ktv session we threw e snacks all over makin such a big mess of e room.. oops.. hehehee.. den folo dem to play jackpot later on.. but i nv play lar... hehehe..

Sun when i was slpin.. dreamt of xue tong.. scared her silly when i told her abt it.. sorry ger.. hehee but i couldn't hlp y i dream of such things oso.. sorry sorry.. i was so upset dat i woke up cryin badly too..

Not much peeps r left in office le.. gonna leave soon.. anw wendy's made dat angel crystal hp chain for me le!! reali hearts it so much!! but i hope to find another pink or purple color de.. wil b damn damn nice!!! =DD

Oh n cruise shd stil b on ba.. though deres onli me wendy wan ting n dennis.. hahaha.. yeahhh gonna go kl shop shop n shop le!! =DDDD alrites, tired le.. byebye ppppllls..

2007-06-08T18:13:00.000-07:00

i jus haf to vent my anger somewher AHHH i canot take it e F*ckin weather could some1 imagine dat i was sweatin all e way in e mrt from Admiralty to Redhill?? WTf???~?~?~? i chose a damn wrong position to sit down.. e 1 dat e sun shone on my back... n wth. e sun is reali damn scorchin. n dis time i reali mean DAMN. my goodness. e air con in e MRT doesnt seem to b workin at all!! e sun jus shone n shone on my back til i feel damn warm n develop a headache. WT??? til i get out of dat damn mrt den i feel some air my gosh. can mrt ppl jus lower e air con recently?

E sun is so hateful.

2007-06-07T18:23:00.000-07:00

I hate ppl who bully my Dad.
I hate ppl who bully my Mum.
I hate ppl who bully my Sis.

I will curse n swear at dis ppl.. so beta don let me noe who u r.

Any1 who happen to noe whers D* Peach Salon (something like dat) at Yishun.. don patronize dere.. cos e head of e salon dere totally sux!!! a big bully!! *curses.

Alrite other stuffs.. been v fan nao or dono izit bcos of my pms ahhahahhaa.. damn sians recently.. contract endin 3 months later.. dono wat i gonna do after dat lehhh..

No plans for weekend yet.. hmmm..

N i actuali wonder... the "A-Q" r/s... will dey last?

2007-06-07T00:33:00.000-07:00

Jus changed e background of my pancake.. dat "City in e Dark" or 4gt wat name le cost me jus 900 points lor... zzz.... bought finish all e bgs dat i wanted to buy le.. got 7 i tink.. hafta reuse e rest le cos e others i don reali like le.. wahhahaha.. today's weather is so hot today la.. wenta harbourfront dere de hawker to eat.. wa seh e warm warm wind blowin lor... bth lor.. den e sun wa seh.. scorchin again.. zzzz

Joy n me tryin to find e last leg for tonite's mj... haahhahah but like canot find lehhh... cos fri shes not playin so settle on later... hmmm.. c how later bahsssssss....

Sudd feel dat deres so many ppl to email nowadays ahhahahha.. chat non stop shiiits.

Listenin to Peggy Hsu's new album now.. got a few new albums from shal... Peggy's is not bad.. Zhang Dong Liang's sounds kinda his type... no particular "tu po"... but Wang Zi is nice.. heheheh.. n i actuali copied Yang Pei An's album over!! wahhahhhahh! i tink hes kinda funny a guy... e voice so shriekin de.. wahhahahha. "Wo Xiang Xin Wo Jiu Shi Wo, Wo Xiang Xin Ming Tian~~~ " waahhahahhahahhahha!!

Wow n i actuali won e ballots to e fantastic 4 movie organised by my company.. i dono is considered reali lucky or wat leh.. haven confirmed goin wif who though.. hees.

Movies, Mjs, Ktvs.... had my share of funs.. its time to tink abt whether i can survive as a japanese translator in e future... *tinks deeply... ....

2007-06-06T22:51:00.000-07:00

Life is abt makin choices... i dono how many wrong choices i've made in my life.. sigh. at a loss of wat to do again, n reali tired of my current lifestyle.. mayb its time to change a new job, a new way of livin, whole new tinkin.. bla bla. dono wat i talkin abt..

I hate bein a young adult.. i hate e startin of adulthood.. all dis need tinkin n wise consideration of wat i wan to b e next time.. most of my frens seem to noe wat dey wan... n all abt e same oso.. study to get dat darn degree so dat pay will b higher next time.. onli im livin in a virtual world... keep tinkin of marryin rich guy or endin my life.. hahaha.. so unrealistic n unambitious.. but dats jus me ba.. i yearn for a normal n simple life wif no stress n wateva shitholes but i jus cant get wat i wan.. i noe it sounds stupid lar.

But today reali is damn sian n no mood.. argh. gonna tink tink tink for e next few days abt my future life again le.. so borin. BIG O BORIN!

2007-06-04T20:08:00.000-07:00

Today is jus a badddd day.. though deres no specific reason y.. damn sian, sick n annoyed.. lil things runnin ard in my head makin me havin headaches n e stupid weather n stupid codin all makin me damn dizzy. argh. hlp ahh.

2007-06-01T18:17:00.000-07:00

FRidayyyyy weees. Firstly, happy birthday to sis!!! =) shouted to her dat when clock strikes midnite though.. ahahha cos cant get to slp.. zz. Happy bdayy jie jie ... Gonna buy a watch for her bday present~~ cos noe she need 1 badly.. all her watches dono y cui le.. er but hope deres no pan tangness ba.. at most ask her return me $1 wahahha.. but told her dat i wanna buy for her anw, cos wan her to choose somethin like dat like rather den gif her a surprise n buy somethin she may not like.. yeah.. n she took e day off~ so niceee.. dono how shes celebratin though.. but hope she enjoy!!

meetin limin n meijuan later on ba.. dono who else, but jus for dinner lor.. hee.. sat stil haven confirm go wher.. sun is meetin up wif pear jas 40 n gq~~ weeeeeeeee. pear so long nv c uuuuuuu!! misses * misses.. sudd few programs comin up in june weekends, make me v confused.. cos i've been coopin myself up at home durin weekends for few months le den sudd got ppl ask me out kinda canot rem when is wat.. hai old n memory failin.. sianss.. but its nice to haf ppl askin u out so im happy happy yeAAAAAAA =)

P.S : i wanna eat you mian gan wif tomato sauce as base at dat particular stall soooo muchhh... Booooooooooo =(((( many upsets.. n i wanna eat dim sum too at dat 2 particular places arrrrrrrr =(( upsets.

P.S 2 : Promises r meant to b broken, rules r meant to b bent and principles r meant to b unabided.

2007-05-30T21:39:00.000-07:00

Im so hungryyyyyyyyy.. =(

tml's hol!! n after dats fri n den weekend again!! woOOOOOOO~~

Happy advanced Vesak Day ppl!! enjoy ur holiday~~~~~~~~~~!

2007-05-29T23:08:00.000-07:00

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one..
To take my breath away.

Guess many ppl now r addicted to dis song by Redwan Ali... ahahahha.. e song for Mars vs Venus... not e theme song though.. quite nice romantic n catchy song.. hehehe.. finishin corner wif love soon.. every show has a nice n wonderful endin.. but sometimes i jus doubt..

I wonder wat my life will b like 5 or 10 yrs down e road? i reali cant imagine.. n im afraid.

2007-05-27T10:25:00.000-07:00

OOOOOOOOOoooo deres dis Rainie Yang's new movie comin up real soon called the Spider Lilies!! I'm sooooo excited to watch it!! But its RA de.. my 1st RA movie to b!!! but not excited cos its RA la, but as in, oso excited its RA la cos nv watch it b4 haahahaha n my 1st is to dis movie!! n its Rainie Yang's 1st movie on screen!! JUS SO EXCITED LEH! at least something to look forward to ma.. hees.. comin rite up on 14th June!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

N wats more!??! shes a LES in dat movie!!!! goodness so many scenes of her wif e other ger.. kinda weird though..

But Rainie's jus soooooo cute n such a sweetie pie ahahahaah but don worry. I'm not a lei si bian.

P.S : now den i realise how convenient it is for blogger to haf dat auto save function cos my comp jus auto restarted on its own -_-

2007-05-26T01:35:00.001-07:00

Its a sad saturday....

2007-05-24T03:28:00.000-07:00

Im sick. Took MC today n rested at home.. time passes pretty fast.. was at e doc's at 11+.. i called dem n knew dat dey will stop ppl from comin in at 11.45 so i rushed down n reached dere by 11.30.. got my queue no.. n it's e 1st time i waited so long at e clinic lor.. waited for like 10 ppl.. nearli fainted dere.. weak n slpy n everythin.. went to lend tissue from e nurse but she asked me to wait n gimme toilet paper instead.. sigh. shal make do wif dat.. wait n wait.. ard 12.15, its finali my turn.. e last patient rite b4 their break.. sians de..

Doc says its e same thing lor.. sensitive nose, n inflamation at my throat n stuff like dat.. oways told me e same thing wheneva i go.. shall not finish e med dis time n next time wheneva im feelin unwell i'll jus take e med, no need go c him liao.. hahaa. had porridge for lunch again.. same like ytd's dinner.. mouth is so bland.. jus ate 3 sweets.. stil feelin weird.. n after i woke up from my nap, i realised fever is comin in.. dots.. shd haf gotten another day mc from him jus in case.. dats wat my frens n mum oways tel me but i nv did.. hahaha. pai seh leh. my doc v weird de, nv offer to gimme MC.. oways must i ask him den he ok ok.. -_- smacks..

Feelin even weaker after my nap.. walk like floatin.. headache.. n my voice sounds like shit.. colleague, shalrine's voice changed few weeks b4.. her voice become like a man's.. n i was stil wonderin when wil b my turn cos i kinda like sore throat which wil make my voice change de.. hhahah abit weird rite. but like fun ma. now my voice change like wat liao. i don like. canot even sing nicely.. was singin at e toilet den my voice sucksss lorrr like totally a dif person liaos.. dono when den can go ktv like dat..

Who wanna jio me go holiday.. quick leh.. v bored leh. i reali wanna go on a holiday!!

2007-05-23T23:00:00.000-07:00

ARggghhh how uncool can i get.. y m i owayyyysss so fed up... argh. shall go home n meditate n get back my coolness -_- STOP STOP STOP TINKINNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

2007-05-23T18:14:00.000-07:00

Y m i wastin my time on dis stupid freaker who oways scold me when im not at wrong!?!!?!??!

Fuckin hell i've had enough.

Pls go n tink abt how idiotic u R!!!

Don tink everytime i can bear wif ur ba dao behaviour.. u tink u r rite???

DAmn it don spoil my mornin.

U wil haf ur jus desserts.

ASS.

2007-05-20T19:29:00.000-07:00

im so so tired of livin. so tired of everythin.

tots of poppin a dozen panadols pop into my head.

tots of flyin down e window when im depressed n happened to b at some buildin.

tots of how e world wil b like if it explodes.

tots of dyin tgt wif my family so dat no1 wil b hurt.

tots n tots came into my mine.

how i wish e world jus explode soon.

so dat no1 wil b left on dis earth to hurt me.

n vice versa.

isnt it a wonderful thing for e whole population to vanish from earth?

im hopin dat it happens soon.

reali soon.

2007-05-18T18:58:00.000-07:00

ahh. diarrhea since ytd.. dono wat happen oso.. n its weird diarrheain too. ahahha. hope later wil ok ba.. hahha.. friday.. hmm wats awp again.. dono.. anw shockin scene in e mornin.. sigh. life is so... unpredictable.. reali dono wat wil happen tml.. so try to live today e fullest n happiest ba.. i'll try!!! =)

Nuainnnnnnnnnnn. =X

2007-05-17T00:26:00.000-07:00

Wat more can i do?

Heart has aredi dropped to my tummy.

Sigh * 100

2007-05-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

I dono whos rite whos wrong.. i dono who to trust anymore.. dis is makin me so fed up n jus feel like screamin aARGGGHH. i say sorry for everythin. even things dat i don tink im wrong in.. mayb im jus a turtle ba.. a turtle who doesnt dare to stand up for myself.. i do not wan any conflicts or wateva.. im so sorry for everythin.. i oways mess things up..

Sigh.

Canot take it de leh.. stop givin me all dis pressure n harsh treatments..

STOP IT!

2007-05-15T03:23:00.000-07:00

6.29pm.. nuain in e office.. done finish my work.. kinda tire out n in a stone mood today..

mornin was ok, quite awake but.. like brain malfunctionin..

head blank.. cant tink properli..

anw lunch was so bad. not reali bad, but e laksa i had was e spiciest laksa i've eva eaten gosh. deres n immediate burnin n churnin feelin inside my stomach rite after i ate it n it lasts til now.. argh. don tink i wan another bowl again next time le..

today's weather is coolin.. so nice.. but abit too cold in e office.. brrr..

dono tml do wat leh.. hope got ez work for me ahahaha.. n wonderin wat she doin sia zz..

Bestie's started workin.. hope we can meet up after work often.. weeet!

Time to go home! zzzzzzzz.

2007-05-14T19:01:00.000-07:00

i noe im slow, but im jus reali into hua yang.. cos im sooo in love wif wu zun!! onli watch hua yang's dvd recently n i realise wu zun is reali reali soooo perfect~~ his face, tattoo, build, wa i cant believe i even like his MUSCLES too! gawd. i m a muscle hater. but, im sooo into him.. goin gaga.. WOoooooooo! WU ZUNNNNNNNN!

2007-05-13T18:52:00.000-07:00

St James ytd.. kinda lazy to blog though but realised damn long nv post up some pix liao.. oh anw St James ytd was to celeb Sean's bday.. i went dere to chap ji kar hahahah.. things were kinda messed up, but in e end still alrite ba.. walked ard vivo since ard 5.. legs were achin by e time we met e rest..

Saw kelly at St James twice outside at Boiler room.. so wenta take pix wif her hahaha.. shes prettier in real life, wif a real small face.. 8 zhang lian.. hahaha.. Saw XJ at Boiler.. but tod i saw e wrong person so nv went up to him to say hi~~ hahhaa.. next time wil approach him n he says wil buy me a drink hehahaa.. =D

Some random pix n e pix wif kelly..
Today's Mothers Day.. Happy mummy day muacks muacks to her.. nth much though.. normal dinner at home.. ah. im tired again.

2007-05-11T19:31:00.000-07:00

Spidey wif sweets Joy n weii.. hehe. recently deres a trend of my frens all bein late -_- hahaha.. tod i was late ytd le.. but turn out to b e 1st to reach anw.. so wenta e shop at wdl to walk walk.. den to pasar malam.. waa e fried crispy chicken smells so nice.. n e fish crackers wow.. tod of buyin.. but well, nvm.. ahhaa.. saw Sandra..

Dinner was at MOS.. gave dem 4 choices.. most of which were my cravins.. lol.. MOS, Ban Mian at foodcourt(of cos dey can eat other food), Swensons or pasta mania.. hahaha.. weii chose MOS.. so its my fav ebi rice burger set again!! while eatin chatted abt things.. abt GUYS. shits de lo.. hahhah.. n time was near for our movie.. hehee..

Went toilet n into e theatre.. wif e movie startin jus rite den.. at 1st its in a mess but after den ok le.. e female lead, Kirsten Dunst i tink, has v pretty hair.. perm n color.. v nice.. n sometimes she looks so pretty.. but sometimes her eyes look kinda weirrd.. hahaha.. but overall not bad lar.. keep focusin on her hair lor.. hahhaa.. e Peter Parker (sPiderman) look like Mr Bean leh i realised.. has dat big eyed gong face.. den i told weii n in e end she n joy tink so too.. wahhahaha.. so funny.. imaginin Mr Bean flyin ard in dat spidery outfit, mutterin nonsense to himself wahahhaha. funny sight..

Fri today.. wonder wats y program later? lol.

Happy Mothers Day to mummy in advance!!

2007-05-10T20:09:00.000-07:00

Darn e stupid LG KG800 chocolate phone. its e lousiest phone i've eva came across to. damn e sensitivity n madness of e censors. its enuf to make me pissed each time it goes crazy again. doubt deres much ppl in dis world who uses dis lousy phone anymore, all except me. Yes im dat stupidest person on earth n its all bcos of dat stupid reason dat im not sellin dat damned phone. argh.

Yeahh! movies later wif my sweets~~ its been long since we went out like dis.. Yeahh happy.. Spiderman 3!! Im not particularly excited abt e show though.. but no bad feelins abt it too.. jus kinda neutral ba.. some says its nice, some says not.. 2 hr 20 min show.. pray dat i don slp inside.. lols.

E weather has turned for e beta... v happy for dat fact too.. hehe.. weekend's mother's day.. dono how to celeb wif her since she doesnt wanna mix in e crowd... was tinkin me n sis go buy ingredients for dinner n we 2 make a sumptous dinner for mum n dad?? wooo doubt we can do it though, 2 clumpsy ppl. wahhaha.

Except for e fact dat i was kinda insulted earli in e mornin n dat feelin sucked, things haf gone on pretty well so far.. n so hope it remains til e rest of e day!! tml's fri.. WEeeeeeeeeee. no programs at e moment though.. come on organise some outins pretty please... hahaha..

Waitin for pear's exam to finish too!! den we can sua shoppin and gossips!!!

Anw e Chan 8 9pm show every weekeday is a damn true show.. tru it i can reali understand how both genders tink things n its damn true! guys - can nv trust their words.. SO TRUE! hahaha. kiddin la. dis applies to onli some guys i've met.. for those who nv watch dat show.. hurry go catch it!! a v comedian show wif pretty actresses n pretty guys wif all those v v true words comin out from their mouths..

P/s: Don u tink u can bully me. BAaaaaa.

2007-05-08T23:36:00.000-07:00

Darn its a bad day again.. woke up later abit den usual n went to bathe.. halfway den realise not feelin well.. sighs.. flu.. in such a bad weather.. den reach office.. den realise got sore throat.. cos dat was e 1st time i spoken for e whole mornin.. hahhaa.. hope fever doesnt come...

Mp3 player dropped.. sians. nv dropped b4 for e past 2 yrs..

Dono y shes so petty.. little thing wan to vent anger..

Slpy now.. n kinda pissed wif e stupid ocbc bank ppl ba.. bad impression aredi.. 1st time sign up for their debit card den tel me lost my application form, now found it back. ask me to resend e cheque + my hp bill.. wth? no more next time.. if not sure condemn n complain. @$#%

Bad bad weather....

2007-05-07T19:46:00.000-07:00

Re-wrote my entry again n again.. cos wrote some unsightly things dat im afraid wil hurt e ppl unintentionally for ppl who view my blog.

Some ppl i met r jus so horrible. makes me wonder y.

I jus haf to say, dat i realised gd men r extinct-in real soon.

2007-05-04T22:49:00.000-07:00

Thanx for scoldin me lor!!!! ....................................................................

Chalet's later~~ WEeeeeeeeeeeee. seems like not much ppl goin though.. hope it wil b fun.. yeaaaaaaaa =)

Lunch was soooooooooo fulllllllllllll. stupid sugarcane..

Gonna tryta rush finish e rest of my DDSes.. so dat i can go off in time to meet dem~~ BBBbbbbbbbbb.

2007-05-03T18:54:00.000-07:00

HAii wat a bad bad day i had ytd... damn sians..

Shes sooo fake!! Realli hate it mans.. tried to b normal~ but she jus seems so unfrenly sometimes n soo overdoin it sometimes... eew. don like it.

Anw stil hafta bear wif it ba~ act like i c nth lo.. hehe.

N my blog counter is 9990 now!! lol. so excitin to c it jump to a new no..

Today will b a beta day!!``

2007-05-03T00:34:00.000-07:00

I was in e toilet washin my leg n shoes cos deres a heavy downpour.. After i finished, was waitin for my colleagues to finish their business.. den i saw my fren Mich, comin into e toilet~..

Mich : Hey Yi San u like slim down liao leh!!!

Me : (Adjustin my belt or wateva)Orh cos i was jus suckin in my tummy ma.

Wahahahhahahahha i dono isit reali dat funny anot leh but at e scene seems like every1 luffin esp Mich, she luf like mad~~~ whahahahaa! Quite frank wasnt i? lol. Joke of e Day!

Ohhhhh noooo i jus haf to add on.. dat i view my blog after updatin it n it reach 10k aredi!! ARRRRRRRrrrrrr.

2007-05-02T18:21:00.000-07:00

Woke up in e mornin to find it rainin~ outside~!! absolutely hearts rainy weather.. provided dat i've a brolly wif me.. hehehe.. but v sad thing is... no breakfast for me today =(

Its quiet in e office today.. i dono y.. but dere don seem to b much ppl ard n talkin.. flu has subsided.. been sooo sick now n den for dis few months.. must b e weather~ hais.. things arent gettin beta either..

Anw my blog counter is soon hittin 10k~~ wonder who's e lucky 1 who visited my blog when it hit 10000, tag my board k? hahhaha quite stupid i noe but its a stupid blog maa =D

Oh.. n peeps who read my blog.. hlp me feed my pet k? it wil add on e points n i can buy more backgrounds wif e points... lol. alrite goin to work le baa.. kinda got monday blues de mood.. zz. bb people.

2007-04-28T06:06:00.000-07:00

Well well well.. who would haf known dat my compy is in a great mood today n allows me to start it up?? tee hee.. i will b contented enuf if it lets me use it once per week~ lol.

Ktvin ytd.. changes made now n den.. supposed to b a poly mates gatherin, but ended up becomin a scs IA gatherin.. lol.. saw "sis" online last min ytd den kept askin him to go wif us to ktv.. cos i knew he don like goin dere, i nv held my hopes high.. but who noes! he agreed when i was abt to leave e office! wooo~ met up wif jas 1st.. darn i was stil e 1st to reach.. hahaha.. wenta ta bao 20 piece nuggets for dinner lol.. share wif jas~ niceee~ saw a cutie workin at e ktv wahhahaa.. look kinda like 1 of our scs colleagues.. lol. finished at 11.. but was i shagged..

oh, n thanx sis for sendin me home..

kinda upset now.. dono wat else to type le ba..

2007-04-27T18:35:00.000-07:00

Its friii today! weeee! gonna ktv wif e poly mates later.. dats if every1 is stil on.. hahha but guess me n jas n 40 is sure on le ba~ woooo!

recently been sick.. but dono wat sickness.. routine is mornin diarrhea, whether bf is taken anot.. n lunch is eat le feel like vomit... hai. dono wats happenin la.. stomach flU? food poisonin? been to e doc but he nv say much leh.. hmmm.. i suspected mayb i got yan shi zhen.. hahahha. dono la.

anw got workin mood today.. so don wan waste time bloggin liao.. gotta finish my workk vvv soon!

cya all after e weekend!

oh. n Labour Day is comin.. hmmm.

Lastly, wish my bestie all e best in her last paper!! happy hollllllllls!

2007-04-23T18:40:00.000-07:00

oops.. 4gt to say.. CONGRATULATIONS FOR JIA BAO N HUI SI on givin birth to a keeee aiii baby Yong Qian Le!!! i wan to play wif her!! i wan to b her gan jie jieeee wahhahahaha.. had wanted to go to e hospital to visit hui si but jb says shes comin out today le.. so too bad lor.. gonna visit her n e baby v soon!! YEAHHHHHHHHHH!

2007-04-23T18:09:00.000-07:00

Started my day off in e train.. boarded e train at ad den saw a seat.. so happy faster sat down ahahah.. but less den 10 secs i saw a pregnant lady -_- so i immediately let me seat to her.. but she seems kinda grouchy.. mayb mon's blues ba.. hahaha.. felt dat i done a gd deed earli in e mornin.. but actuali it din turn out as well as i expected it to be..

received a msg n got to noe e news.. but kinda sad i was onli informed now.. all e feelins flooded into me n i felt like cryin on e train.. mixture of upset, joy n touched.. contradictin huh? haha.

den i walked in e stupid hot sun.. canttt stand e stupid weather recently.. damn HOT! n walkin e distance of 15 mins is hell.. esp when i gotta cross e overhead bridge.. oh did i mention dat i played bowlin on fri? oh well i played like 3 rounds of bowlin on fri (kana psychoed 1) n i was damn lousy la n e lousin team ended up in treatin drinks/ice creams n it caused my left butt muscle n both upper thigh mucles to ache so badly!!! shdnt haf played leh alamak now i hafta suffer.. =/ anw climbin e bridge under e brighty sun was HELL too. argh.

fri was goin to cwp after work.. met up wif frens at clementi mrt n dey fetched us dere.. ate dinner n wanted to go movie.. but like no movies to watch.. so ended up goin to Orchid CC for our bowlin game lor.. anw saw xue n mj at cwp!! OOOooooo!

oh... n den i wenta ICA on sat to collect my passport.. was kinda orbit cos me n sis went out at ard 10 n i was afraid we wil not b in time le.. so after we alighted Lavendar mrt we rushed like siao into e buildin to get our Q no.. its 3532.. wanted to buy 4d but 4gt -_- n i saw dat e ticket says dere r 739 ppl in front of me!! WTH. ok, heard from few frens dat dey took like n hr plus to collect, but wat do u tink.. in e end i waited for 3 1/2 hrs for dat daaaaaaaaaarn passport! OMG. cant believe dat.. hafta call Chapter 2 to delay my appt wif dem..

After collectin ppt, sis n i went to bugis.. Crystal Jade Macau for lunch.. n its aredi 3! tod macau doesnt sound too gd, but actualli e food is actualli quite nice! wooo.. but kinda rushed our food too, cos appt was at 3.30.. reached Chapter 2 ard 3.40pm.. wanted to do e Cutcare (Cut + Treatment) but ended up doin Soft Straightenin/Rebondin to my hair.. hahaha! at 1st tod my stylist was kinda attitude but hahaha actuali shes ok lar.. quite nice to me oso.. hehee.. n i quite like their service too.. saw 2 cute guys dere.. wow reali cute.. 1 was my sis's stylist! but actuali im glad dat e ger cut my hair for me hehehhe cos i quite like it... my sis's stylist name, if im not wrong is jeremy.. but shd b a msian.. another i saw was kinda opp me.. dono his name but quite quiet n cool.. hao ke ai.. gonna patronise dere next time again whahahahha.. so many eye candies! even some gers dere r quite adorable.. saw 2.. 1 look like huang yu xia miniature version.. hahahha!

Anw summed up my weekend.. so happy dat my hair finali not so cui liao haaaa hope dis is e last time im doin straightenin.. hope it lasts!!!

2007-04-20T18:20:00.000-07:00

Feelin holiday-ly as today is Fri! but dat doesnt mean i can slack.. stil haf alot of things to finish up!! Sat shd b goin take passport wif sis n go shoppin wif her.. sun stil no program... next fri/sat meetin wif poly frens.. n chalet is comin again! ehheehee.. so nice.

did a simple birthday test on an excel sheet.. heres e result.. v true lehh.. like 90% lo.. whahahaha.

DECEMBER

* Loyal and generous
* Patriotic
* Active in games and interactions
* Impatient and hasty
* Ambitious
* Influential in organizations
* Fun to be with
* Loves to socialize
* Loves praises
* Loves attention
* Loves to be loved
* Honest and trustworthy
* Not pretending
* Short tempered
* Changing personality
* Not egoistic
* Takes high pride in oneself
* Hates restrictions
* Loves to joke
* Good sense of humor
* Logic

bye bye.. go work le..

2007-04-19T09:23:00.000-07:00

Its a rainy day.. hafta thank cl for brolly-in me to e office.. thanxxx.. was feelin rather down ytd.. not reali, but a weird feelin.. i don like to avoid ppl n i don like ppl to do so to me too.. ahhh jus del a whole para of wat im writin, cos i dono how to express out.. anw will jus like to hope dat all our frenships remain as such, n gd frens will oways b gd frens.. =)

*cough cough.

2007-04-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

歌曲：是你决定我的伤心
歌手：张玉华/李圣杰

女:我曾经以为那是一次潇洒的邂逅
所以我一直相信能够轻易说hello
抱著游戏的心情
考验自己没有防备的感情
不在乎自己有没有这种能力

*男:我必须承认不敢释放我的真情
所以我相信也会是你的问题
太多太多的激情闯进尘封已久的禁地
让我们失去选择的余地

#男:是你决定我的伤心
女:是你决定我的伤心
合:如果我们还会重新相遇
我会用感觉拥有所有的你

+男:是你决定我的伤心
女:是你决定我的伤心
合:如果我们还会重新相遇
我不会让你决定我的伤心

Jus how true is dis song?? i tod it was ez to say hello wor.. but its not ez.. hahaahhahaa. Nice song, n nice lyrics..

2007-04-16T10:39:00.000-07:00

My gosh.. e weather is hot n i meant HOT here.. cant take it leh.. its sooo swelterin out dere.. n today's e time of e month.. gawd how miserable can i get.. my tummy is in pain! i cant concentrate on my work n i feel so tired..

Went shoppin ytd.. finali went out after so long.. haha.. bought 3 tops n a Guess wallet.. nearly kana psychoed to buy a Gucci wallet arr $380 omg.. but its reali nice.. jus dat it doesnt haf e dollar note slot n a compartment for coins.. it has a silver rim... soooo nice! but my Guess wallet is nice too, its gold inside n e design outside looks kinda Gucciy.. the brown n e design.. hehehe.. from far ppl may mistook it for Gucci! 1 ju liang de.. wahhaha.

Anw, was introed to take up a course - Bridal Make-up Course.. 700+.. dono wan anot? if i took it up, i may wan to bcome a make up artiste.. either as sideline or full time de.. don reali noe is dis prospect gd.. but i don mind doin it ba.. but i don mind not doin it too? -_- confused leh.. wil tink abt it thoroughly ba.. so far all e comments i received were kinda negative de.. im more interested in takin up singin lessons though, but i don c a point dere when i don intend in takin part in those competitions?

Wher is my life headin towards now?
I reali dono.

2007-04-13T10:50:00.000-07:00

Its Friday the 13th.. My day..
Every year on dis day.. so far as i can rem.. i'm mostly lucky n a happy ger de.. dis yr doesnt seem to haf any happy happenins on me though.. so far lar. haha.

Like wat i say.. my life is full of nonsensical guys.. which i tink is quite true.. all of dem r givin me patterns makin me so headache.. stop it la. dono how to handle de lo.. haven met a reali nice guy or nice guyS for a long time le leh.. all seems kinda weird de.. so i tink im givin up on guys.. i like gers leh.. gers r prettier den guys.. HAHA.

Every weekend i haf to tink of wat to do.. hmmmm for dis weekend shd b watchin dvds again ba.. wait for pt to finish her exams den i will b able to meet her more lo.. n dat pear go mia lo. wan to smack her liao.

SIAN SIAN SIAN. go do work liao..

2007-04-11T19:10:00.000-07:00

Truth hurts.
Office Politic hurts.
Disappointment hurts.
Avoidance hurts.
Negligence hurts.
Incompetence hurts.
Frens hurt.
He hurts.
She hurts.
They all hurt.

HURT.

hurt.

onli in death, i don hurt.

2007-04-11T14:27:00.000-07:00

haiii.. wat can b more disappointin.. expect so much for wat.. now disappointed like shit, onli haf myself to blame.. im not gonna listen to any1 in future le.. its damn hurtin.. can jus say im stupid stupid stupid!

I'm sorry pt.. jus to say i cant treat u anymore.. its all a misunderstandin..

ARGHHHHHhhhhhhhhh.

2007-04-10T13:07:00.000-07:00

Its oways things happen dat u noe who r reali dere for u when im down.. when im down at work, though no1 reali noticed it lol, but dey consoled me n gave me words of advice.. e most common person to noe my things of cos is ah wee.. crapped wif me n say my fish died if any1 ask wat happen to me.. jy jioed me for lunch to take a break from dis n ta baoed sushi back for me.. =) nice. bl gave me advice too, n delayed her lunch jus by typin out advices for me.. sh dono how to console me.. ask me quit my job. lol. dennis, though noe nth, jus told me to jia you..

all dis kinda warm my heart le.. i tink im damn weak lo keep cryin when things happen.. stil dono how to resolve myself meh... BEN DAN YI SAN.

2007-04-10T11:29:00.000-07:00

It finali finali dawned on me.. dat its all equal treatment.. i shd stop tinkin so much n get my life hella out of dis.. i will not lead a life of a catcher anymore.. instead, a hider.. feel damn idiotic n stupid.. slappin myself on e face doesnt even reali work.. like thousands of feelins mixed together, pumped up inside my heart n ready to explode anytime, yet i cant.. im learnin to take things ez.. more n more stable everyday..

i believe 1 day i can do it.. n by den.. hope U will not regret..

n it'll b soon.

2007-04-09T11:16:00.000-07:00

Mondaaaaaaaaayyyy... Ktvin at Chevrons later.. donooo yyyy set on mon leh.. tml sure tired like wat.. hahaha.. joseph introed a ktv at chinatown which is onli $10 for 3 hrs n deres 1 bowl of sharks fin each n free flow of drinks n tidbits..! wow wat a gd deal.. gonna ask him to bring us dere some day..

Weekend isnt exactly much of a fun or interestin 1.. Mj on thurs nite as usual, til e next mornin.. but stayed home on fri, sat, n sun.. soo nooo lifeee. but nvm.. got plenty of rest n plenty of tv show n dvd watchin.. hahaha.

Hmm today isnt a reali gd day... it all started wif e humid weather!! OMG i can even sweat at home lor.. all e way till office.. my body was sooo warmm.. hate e weather reali. saw a wriggley's gum on my table in e mornin.. dono who put, but thanx anw..

Realised alot of things at work i haven done.. as in not i haven done lor.. e upper ppl constantly throw me work to do.. sigh. i oways ok ok ok til now i realise deadline soon.. shd haf tried to reject lo.. sehhh.. nvm too late.. shall try to finish my dds update when i haf e time..

Like now. -_-

2007-04-05T15:17:00.000-07:00

Its a slpy slpy day...

Fallin aslp in e office.. argh. reali tired lo.. reached home ard 12 ytd.. went amk hub wif pt n xj.. wooo finallI~ not as many things as i expected leh.. looks like vivocity though.. had mos burger for dinner.. walked ard.. played pool.. n went home..

Pt n i r crazy ytd.. it was pix takin n luffin like mad woman all over.. dono wat happened to us, we jus behaved so uglily tru out.. wif xj~ so orbit de.. wahhahaha..

Tml's Gd Friiiiday!! n next fri is fri e 13th... hmmmm.. weekends r all abt mj mj n mj.. but lucky i haf a few dvds at home, even w/o mj i wun b bored.. its a longgggggggg n niceeee weekend! =)

Stupid mergin FINs at work is makin me mad.. had to liase wif so many ppl n made me confused all over.. my base wasnt even gd enuf n i dono how to reply ppl's questions.. dots.. waitin for e user to b ready now n downn i suaAAAaaaa!